I'M STRESSED OUT!
it's only been 2 days since i last blogged, &it had been hectic/surprising/fun/emotional/frustrating/tired,
i'm lost for adjectives to describe.
but yah, so much for jst two days.

ok. but first thing first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONOVAN!
i don't knw whether you will read my blog or not,
but i'm here to wish you:D

i uploaded photos, lyke finally.
it took me 124836543 hours to do so.
&i'm not going to care about the gaps nor the alighment.
sorry people, jst bear with it ok. will edit it some day. hahs!

ernest nah is finally back, thanks for the dunkins donut:D
but virnice ng and choo shuin is going for por4 tonight!
you are both missed ok:D
no full gang dinner/outing for the next eight days. grr...

sch was boring as usual.
was suppose to submit my resume &cover letter today.
but i forgot to bring to school! so had to rush home to take it
&meet up with grp mates to do ob project.
i'm very forgetful now adays &i hate it when tt happen,
because things will not be going your way after tt.

enough of today, time for updates.

15th november
school was uttering boring, so I’m gonna skip that whole part.
Went to white sand with jasmine gan, cause she didn’t
want to go home after school. We had our lunch/dinner
at carona! Curry chicken noodle + terriyaki tofu. woots!
we were jst basically window shopping but found some
nice stuffs for tkk.

then, we decide to walk home:/
it took us ard 2 hours? but we had a fun time.
cam whoring/chatting/screaming/idiotic stuffs/laughing.
i'm always happy when i go out with her.
eventhough i see her 24/7, i jst won't get sick of her &we
won't run out of topics to say. ironic right?
thank you God for giving me jasmine gan cheng yan.

ok, continue on.
i found the routh from pasir ris back home quite nice.
maybe i shld follow that route to jog one day:)

so thats how we end our day.
sticky/tired/smelly/ewwwwwww (in jas manner)
photos are available in previous post.

16th november
went to buy cs present.
was damn tired that day, cause i had to eat pills to stop
my running-nose. &it was a drowsy pill.
met up with vir, nel and gab first. jasmine gan came ltr after school.
the guys were giving attitudes, so i was quite speechless at first.
but everything went well after tt.

i couldn't really rmb wht happen tt day.
(so much for jst being seventeen)
we were jst walking from one place to another cause we have no
idea to what to buy. but we ended up buying a water bottle and
ordered a cake? or you could say a huge cookie from famous amos.
then it's dinner at taka.

rush off to church after that.
by right, we are suppose to catch the church bus.
but jasmine gan got squashed by the mrt door and was
left at the station while the rest were in the train.
so we had to wait for her at the next stop. awwwww.
so we missed the bus):

hof was good.
vir had por meeting after tt, so we left w/o her.

17th november
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOO SHUIN!
met up early with vir first to do up the birthday card.
but jasmine and I were late late late.
when we finally get onto the bus to interchange,
jasmine was lyke "eh, where's the plastic bag
that contain cs presents?" so, congrats. it's at home:/

we had to take a bus back home to collect it.
&call our always-there-and-efficiency ecin!
when we ran out of money to take cab fare, forget to
bring things, hungry, bored, in need of cash and etc,
she's always there, ready for us. (jasmine and me)
if you knw me really well, you ahld knw tt ecin
is my maid or could i say, my second mummy
who is with me for ten years. i love you ecin!

ok, jst like i say, she came to our rescue.
she waited at the bus stop& pass us the stuffs.
through the bus door! totally embarassing.
jasmine gan even explain to the bus driver abt it. LOL!
so we were super duper late when we met vir.

took sinus pills before i left home, so was drowsiness again.
was sleeping while standing in the mrt, cause i jst couldn't it.
on top of that, i was suppose to check my email,
but i was out and do not have a comp.
with drowsiness and frustration pushing me down, i'm
feeling very irritated, but yah. i don't want to spoil the mood.
we then went to toa payoh to get the relightable candles
&headed off to yishun to meet nah nah.

finally saw him after 5 days. everyone is wearing pink! lol
we then settle down in yishun macs to do up the card.
headed for outreach after that. it was a fruitful one.
pair up with nich and jas cause baoru cldn't make it.
some kids address me as "jie jie", my hair was lyke all standing.
i'm jst so not use to it. hahs!

i had to leave earlier, cause i had to help out yuru mum.
arrive at bugis later than ever. was suppose to reach at six
but i reached half an hour ltr?
her mum at first wanted us to wait for one hour.
but i had to collect cs cake/cookie or what so ever you call it.
&i think yuru had a appiontment. so we didn't wait.

rush off to orchard to meet gabriel to collect cake
&so tt he cld write his part of the card.
then rush off to far east to meet nel and vir. (oh i jst hate to rush)
lil nel haven't write the card too. so it's more rushing.

nel &vir then went to find jas/cs/ern first,
so it's up to me and gab to do up the cake.
we light up the candles and went to find the rest.
so, it's surprise! we attract quite a amount of attention,
because cs cldn't blow off the candles. (it was relightable)
we had to submerge the candles in water to put out
the fire! hahas.

eventhough i couldn't say whether it is a surprise or not,
because surprises are not suppose to be known.
&cs know that something was gonna happen because
clarissa told him tt "i saw your gd frens at macs making
something for u just now."
(somethings don't have to say it clear &you will be able to understand.)
so, the whole gang was literally angry/dissapointed/wa liao
at her for being a spoiler.
but we don't blame her, cause she doesn't mean it
&she jst wanna give the birthday boy another wishing:D

nah nah then handed us our dunkin donuts.
everyone was asking "where do you get your donuts from?"
&obviously, our answers only dissapoint them.
cause dunkin donuts are unavailable in singapore!

after eating, it was cam whoring session. some nice passer-by
offered to help us take a photo. thank you mr stranger.
then it was home.

18th november
have you ever wonder why some words which is so
insignificance, will cause your emotions to stir?

it's sunday again. i'm always anticipating it,
cause it's God/tkk/children/friends.
i forgot to bring the craft for 8am):
with jst a sentence of you are responsible for it.
i feel so damn guilty and bad. tear filled my eyes
and i didn't even knw why. but i hold it back cause i knw it's stupid.
i will not forget abt it next time.

taught in tkk. i think i need lots of improvment.
i almost forgot to fetch my grandmother after service
again. i'm such a bad grand daughter):

for christmas, we should really strive harder to acheive
what we want. jac is right, enough for
mandane/slackness/pondering, time for business.
O Lord, i pray & believe that you will bless this christmas event. amen

went to orchard to shop with the gang.
eat with jasmine then cab home. (so, it's ecin hotline again)

mastor marion taught abt diversion today.
we should stay focus and do not get distracted by:
1. the places we like to go
2. the position/status that we want to acheive
3. unwillingness to sacrifice pain/suffering or paying a price
4. people's recgonition, flattering, adoration, love and praise

this really is a wake up call for me as i've not been getting
things done lately& my focus is always diverted. when i'm
suppose to do something, i always ended up doing some other
stuffs. &things are always not done in the end, plans are always
resheduling and goals are all not met. i really hate it.

so wake up michelle gan. it's time to change!

i knw this had been going on for a long time. i'm jst glad
that you've said it out, cause it's better to make things clear.
i'm sorry if i've hurt you, but it's better for you to knw it
rather than to cling onto any false hope. i didn't knw what you
expect the outcome to be. but all along, i knw i've made my feelings
clear. did i give you any false hope? i don't knw but i hope i don't.
maybe you misunderstood me or maybe i'm jst too unaware
of my own actions. our friendship will still be the same.
that's all that i could say now.